I was in an emotionally abusive relationship. It took me two years to get out. By the time I did, I was a shell of who I used to be. I had cut off all contact with my family and friends. I was convinced I was the ugliest and most useless person on the planet. I thought I was so useless that I couldn’t even boil pasta right.
Do you remember any time, when you were able to totally control your thoughts, even for a short period of time? Are you able direct your focus to whatever you want for a time period of your will? Actually, these are questions that attract out attention before anything else, while starting Mindfulness practice.